肥瑞的疯狂日记第二季

For a long long time , I didn't write anything. But this time , I opened computer , sitting down , and writing this . For Rae , for Finn , and for this little girl inside me deep deep down.

短短的13集， 到目前为止才两季，但是老实说，我是在看到第一季的中间部分才爱上这部剧。剧中总是在强调，这不是电影，so there is no happy ending。真的是没有happy ending，在剧中Rae和Finn经历了好多次才终于在第二季最后一集的最后一个镜头“花好月圆”。

可能是电视剧看多了，在看到这几个人的时候头一个反应过来的就是，男主绝不是那个柔柔弱弱的Achie,而是那个刚开始就跟Rea不怎么对付的Finn。但是，很符合现实，1分的Rea在被11分的Finn从小混混手里救下后就开始一门心思的爱上了他。当然，这部戏的男主基本是人见人爱，就连Rea从小玩到大的best mate Chole也是对Finn有着不一样的好感。当然这种有着good looking而且良好性格的男生是百遇不得一见的，也是全剧中唯一最不符合现实的地方。不过，他的家庭背景和性格造成从另一方面解释了为什么爱上Rae的原因。

基本所有人的择偶标准都是来自父母的影响。以大多数女孩为例，从小到大，接触最多的就是自己的父亲，父亲的潜移默化塑造了女孩的个性，当被问道以后想找一个什么样的人的时候，如果说像爸爸那样的，说明和父亲关系很好，which means 与男生的关系也很好，来往自如。另一种，就不是了。对于男孩来说也是如此。

Finn从小没有母亲，渴望母爱的他对有着自然天性的Rae有着不自然的亲切感，当然，我认为如果不是Rae对音乐的超高审美，他也不会改变对Rae的第一印象。（小意淫：每次看见Finn一脸羞涩的望着Rae的时候，就觉得演技简直了）从这一方面也看出，我的music taste确实不怎么样。。。

这不是一部我看完一遍立刻看第二遍的剧，但是，确实让我在看的过程中思考很多，也感同身受很多。

我的身材虽说没有Rae的糟糕，但是也是在糟糕的边缘。所以，虽然不及她的焦虑，可是说有a little bit也是毫不过分的。

现在看到第二季结束，两个人终于在一起，也是值得高兴的一件事。

E1：
http://www.xiami.com/song/showcollect/id/29020231

01 Reverend Black Grape -- Black Grape
02 One to Another -- The Charlatans
03 No Diggity -- Blackstreet
04 Lovefool -- The Cardigans
05 69 annee erotique -- Serge Gainsbourg
06 Money for Nothing -- Dire Straits
07 She's Electric -- Oasis
08 All Night Long -- Stereo MC's
09 The Life of Riley -- The Lightning Seeds
10 She Bangs the Drums -- The Stone Roses
11 Into Your Arms -- The Lemonheads
12 Where It's At -- Beck
13 You're Gorgeous -- BabyBird
14 Bigmouth Strikes Again -- The Smiths
15 Life's an Ocean -- The Verve
16 Country House -- Blur
17 Flower -- Eels
18 Laid -- James

E2：
http://www.xiami.com/song/showcollect/id/29294057

01 Regret -- New Order
02 Wannabe -- Spice Girls
03 One to Another -- The Charlatans
04 Blue Light -- Mazzy Star
05 Speakeasy -- Shed Seven
06 To The End -- Blur
07 Shakermaker -- Oasis
08 Close to Me -- The Cure
09 Mr. Jones -- Counting Crows
10 Down by the Water -- PJ Harvey
11 Stay Together -- Suede
12 Loser -- Beck
13 Sing -- Blur
14 Hush -- Kula Shaker
15 Waterfall -- The Stone Roses
16 Angel -- Massive Attack
17 Nancy Boy -- Placebo

E3：
http://www.xiami.com/song/showcollect/id/29586012

01 Voodoo People -- The Prodigy
02 Cast No Shadow -- Oasis
03 Let's Get It On -- Marvin Gaye
04 Buddy Holly -- Weezer
05 Enola/Alone -- Manic Street Preachers
06 Female of the Species -- Space
07 Loaded -- Primal Scream
08 Hey Dude -- Kula Shaker
09 Push It -- Salt-N-Pepa
10 Anywhere For You -- Backstreet Boys
11 Dark Therapy -- Echobelly
12 Swallowed -- Bush
13 Going Out -- Supergrass
14 Just To Be Close To You -- Backstreet Boys
15 We've Got It Goin'on -- Backstreet Boys
16 Mr. Wendal -- Arrested Development
17 Quit Playing Games(With My Heart) -- Backstreet Boys
18 Sabotage -- Beastie Boys

E4:
http://www.xiami.com/song/showcollect/id/29587577

01 Friday I'm in Love -- The Cure
02 Lust for Life -- Iggy Pop
03 Finetime -- Cast
04 End Of A Century -- Blur
05 It Could Be You -- Blur
06 The Only One I Know -- The Charlatans
07 On Standby -- Shed Seven
08 Supersonic -- Oasis
09 You and Me Song -- The Wannadies
10 Today -- The Smashing Pumpkins
11 Free Fallin' -- Tom Petty
12 Deep Blue Day -- Brian Eno
13 Hedonism (Just Because You Feel Good) -- Skunk Anansie
14 Animal Nitrate -- Suede
15 Boys Don't Cry -- The Cure

E5:
http://www.xiami.com/song/showcollect/id/29650245

01 No Rain -- Blind Melon
02 Send Me on My Way -- Rusted Root
03 Fun for Me -- Moloko
04 Queer -- Garbage
05 Stay -- Shakespear's Sister
06 Dreamer -- Livin' Joy
07 On and On -- Longpigs
08 Gangsta's Paradise -- Coolio
09 Inertia Creeps -- Massive Attack
10 Being Around -- The Lemonheads
11 Hey Joe -- The Jimi Hendrix Experience
12 And She Was -- Talking Heads
13 Stem -- DJ Shadow
14 Mental -- Eels
15 Baby (You've Got What It Takes) -- Brook Benton and Dianah Washington
16 The First Cut Is The Deepest -- P.P. Arnold
17 Lost Myself -- Longpigs
18 Diamonds on the Soles of Her Shoes -- Paul Simon

E6：
http://www.xiami.com/song/showcollect/id/29896173

01 C'mon Billy -- PJ Harvey
02 Nothing Compares 2 U -- Sinéad O'Connor
03 Diamonds on the Soles of Her Shoes -- Paul Simon
04 Basket Case -- Green Day
05 Angel Interceptor -- Ash
06 Metal Mickey -- Suede
07 I've Gotta Get A Message To You -- Bee Gees
08 Get Away -- Ocean Colour Scene
09 Open -- The Cure
10 Missing (Todd Terry Remix) -- Everything But the Girl
11 Voodoo People -- The Prodigy
12 To The End -- Blur
13 Enjoy The Silence -- Depeche Mode
14 Bang and Blame -- R.E.M.
15 Song of Life -- Leftfield
16 Open Up -- Leftfield
17 Glory Box -- Portishead

E7:
http://www.xiami.com/song/showcollect/id/30059530

01 Mojo Pin -- Jeff Buckley
02 How Soon Is Now -- The Smiths
03 Where Do I Begin -- The Chemical Brothers
04 Poison -- The Prodigy
05 Stuck In The Middle With You -- Stealers Wheel
06 One -- U2
07 Bodhisattva Vow -- Beastie Boys
08 Sure Shot -- Beastie Boys
09 C.R.E.A.M. -- Wu-Tang Clan
10 Even After All -- Finley Quaye
11 North Country Boy -- The Charlatans
12 Modern Love -- David Bowie
13 Chasing Rainbows -- Shed Seven
14 Wonderwall -- Oasis
15 You Do Something to Me -- Paul Weller

这部剧我是被朋友推荐然后去看的，后来我很喜欢，但是她却觉得这是一部烂剧---一群朋友围着一个总是作死搞事情的自私的人为她收拾烂摊子。但我觉得不是这样。

       我还挺喜欢这部剧的。

      其实我觉得吧，每个人都是自私的，只是你的自私看起来不那么自私而已，而Rea的自私却通过日记的方式真真切切地摆在了大家的面前。所以你觉得她自私。
       而她的卑感也是击中了我的心，让我觉得看到了自己。

       
       Rea让我不再那么自卑了，我明白了任何人都有自卑处，然而我根本没必要自卑。因为就算我有缺点，也会有Chloe，Chop，Lizzy，Archie这样的朋友们陪在我身边，还会有Fin这样的人爱我的每一个缺点。我没必要讨好任何人，因为只看到我的缺点的人根本没有必要去接触。

        也许我就是被玛丽苏了吧，但我的确就是这样想的。
       
        BTW，I'm fucking love Fin.

        嗯就这样。



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Krest, I'm a horrible person.

That's right Rae, you're a horrible person. You don't deserve your mom, Chloe, and Finn, not even a penny of them. Yeah, you get problems but that doesn't mean you're the centre of other people's life. Look at what you have done, whenever there is a problem you just let yourself fall. You freak out. you turn to others.you throw your problems at them. and after you repeatedly said you only were good at letting people down, your resolution is merely going back to your mental ward leaving all the mess you have made. You abuse your craziness and turn it into privilege.
I just wonder why Finn said you were strong. I mean, seriously? A self-destructive and self- centered person like you? The only explanation that makes sense is that this is your diary, your wonderland where you have the final say over everything.

It's not about your look or size. It's how you treat people.